When I was 10 years old, I wanted to be a priest, but only because I felt it was the only way to save myself from damnation.
Then, when I turned 13, I began my quest for enlightenment, because I knew I was worthy and felt I would be able to help others along the way.
Since then, I have become an Ordained Minister and Spiritual Shaman.
I have studied Shinto, Taoism, Kabbalah, Buddhism, specifically the concept of bodhisattvas.
I have studied the Ancients: Native American, Egyptian, Sumerian, Indus-Valley, Mayan, Aztec, Inca, Nazca, Olmec, Celtic, Druidic.
I have studied philosophy and other seekers: Plato, Aristotle, Socrates, Hypatia, Leonardo da Vinci, Margaret Cavendish, Bertrande Russell, Henry David Thoreau, Ralph Waldo Emerson, Oscar Wilde, John Keats, Theophile Gautier, Voltaire, Shakespeare, Newton, Albert Einstein.
New Age esoterics has changed within me, from when I was a little Wiccan studying Silver Ravenwolf, Scott Cunningham, Raymond Buckland, and any Element Encyclopedia I could get my hands on; to now, 13 years later.
The New Age world is a hard place to maneuver, especially when you are young with limited resources.
It seems now, that I can freely communicate with my higher Self on a heart-to-heart level. I find it easier and more meaningful to glean enlightenment by listening to those whispers on the wind, instead of reading semantics and ritual. Please, do not misinterpret, I am thankful for my young enthusiasm, but as we age and mature, so does our bookshelf. It doesn’t mean we invalidate those dustier covers. If anything, we smile deeply to ourselves, to our youth, as we dust them off periodically.
Now that I am fast approaching 26, my bookshelf has gotten quite extensive. (Ask any of my friends who have continuously helped me pack and unpack load after load of books.) Now, my nightstand honours Ted Andrews, Caitlin Matthews, Jon Kabat-Zin, Thich Nhat Hanh, Angeles Arrien, Sandra Ingerman, Jeanne Achterberg, Elson M. Haas, Starhawk, Deepak Chopra, Joanna Powell Colbert, and the uncensored writings of Samuel Clemens.
I guess you could say that my spiritual goal is still to gain a sense of enlightenment, but I am much more concerned with allowing it to happen naturally with time. I simply wish to live a spiritual life close to nature and filled with love. To meditate, and to live a life worth living. To be a source for others to come to for guidance and friendship. Because I will be the first to admit, I am no saint. I am no better than any one else who lives in a world where life is a constant battle between what is right and wrong. I just chose to follow the temptations of my spirit: love, partnership, friendship, nature, embracing wildness, Reiki, honesty, kindness to all creatures, tea, chocolate, moon-light and sunlight, hearth-fires, community, meditation, wine, and of course: laughter.
Those are my spiritual goals.
What are yours?
Solar question posed by Caitlin Matthews, Celtic Devotional.