Where are your energies overextended?

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This one took a lot of thought, and at first I wasn’t too sure of the answer.

Life has been pretty good. It has also, yes, been rather busy.

In the tarot, the tens are all about achievement and transition. Some form of end leading to the next big thing. So, I was very uncomfortable pulling the Ten of Earth, which, for me, is all about walking away after a well job good done and towards a new wealth after seeing your efforts finally “paying off.”

Well, this was just not it, I didn’t think I was quite there yet. I am not quite at the finish line so to speak, where I can sit back and relax. Retirement looked as if it was smirking my way. But then it hit me!

It is so much more than that, it is about saying goodbye to an old job. An old way of life. An old way of thinking. And the shadow side of ultimately overworking and being overwhelmed.

This is probably more accurate. I am busy, but I am certainly not working myself to the point of exasperation. Rather, I am learning to balance out my many projects and studies. But, and this is a big ‘but,’ I seem to be challenging myself with a new patient’s level of needed care, which does seem to be overworking me a tad.

Don’t get me wrong, this is a beautiful thing, I love challenges! Especially those that deal with creating boundaries, and reminding and keeping track of clinical hours. But it is hard for me, because I can be stubborn, but I know I have to let go a little as I am dealing with outmoded expectations and social class prejudices associated with this case.

There is an excitement to this case however. It is exciting because it pushes me and gives me experience. How else will I grow as a practitioner if I bend to every client’s whim? This card question reminds me to keep firm in my boundaries and to not overwork myself too much with worry.

“Our Mother Earth herself is the example of plentifulness, diversity, and sustainability. Be willing to let go of your demands, and allow her to bless you with the abundance you most need…know [that your] life’s work will benefit coming generations.”

Sometimes, as practitioners we need to stop and step back a second and not just focus on just the healing aspect. Sometimes we have to focus on just listening. And sometimes we just need to be there, and as someone just reminded me, to just be a person’s friend.

Question posed by Caitlin Matthews, Celtic Devotional.
Photo of the Ten of Earth, from the Gaian Tarot by Joanna Powell Colbert.

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